My blog post is slightly different this week. In part, it’s about my vulnerabilities as I work thought this COVID paradigm, and in part it’s about connecting to how you may be feeling as we work though this period in our lives together.

Here’s my deal. I’m a positive person.

My cup is half full rather than half empty (except when it contains a G&T and the barman is nowhere to be seen :-))
Whenever possible I look on the bright side, and I seek to find the good, rather than the not so good in all people and situations.

So why do I feel like I’ve had enough? 
Why am I struggling to see the rainbows?
And why do I feel like I want the wheel to stop so I can get off and go somewhere (sunny) to bury my head in the sand?

Simply put, sometimes I find it really hard to do ‘life’ at the moment. 

I want whatever I’m feeling to go away, but the problem is, I don’t know what I’m feeling; are they true feelings, or simply pandemic fatigue?

You don’t know this, but there have been many times over the last few months when I almost threw the towel in, packed up my business and moved somewhere warm and sunny to ‘escape’ life (I know!!!). If it wasn’t for the fact my daughter is a senior in high school and I feel an overwhelming obligation to my clients/friends to get them through what is possibly one of their hardest winters, I may well have done just that.

I was telling a friend a little of how I’m feeling and she commented that I’m lucky because I see sooooooo many people every day at work, and I’m not sitting behind a screen in zoom hell. Yes I am lucky, and yes, I do see lots of people when I’m teaching classes, but here’s the thing…
I have SOCIAL INTERACTION rather than SOCIAL SATISFACTION.
I have snippets of conversations, but mostly I’m not having conversations, I’m giving instruction, which is very different.

We are social creatures, stripped of our license to gather and gain energy from others, so it is no wonder I have identified social satisfaction as something of the utmost importance for my mental wellbeing; and while I may not be able to fix my pandemic fatigue, I can address this one area in my life which is sincerely lacking.  

If you can associate with anything I have written, and, if  like me, you would like to shake things up a little and find your mojo again try asking yourself the following…

First, identify why you are feeling the way you do with these questions:

I’m going to pull myself together, put on my big girl pants and snap out of my mindset. I need to get back out there, after all, if I want to encourage you to be your best self, I need to be my best self.

Here’s how I’m going to do it:

Don’t get me wrong, I still don’t feel like grabbing life by the balls and partying my weekends away, but I do feel like that I have identified one of my reasons for unrest and I’m moving closer to my former self, and closer to normality.

Mail me back, I would love to hear your stories and hear how you are doing. And if, like me, you’re up for a cup of coffee or a glass of wine let me know, and don’t let me say no 🙂

Zoë x